A/N: Firstly, thanks for all of those that commented. I seriously appreciated every single one, you guys really made my day. Sorry for the delay, but all kinds of funny things over the weekend made me late >_< Anyway here are the next two parts, with the final part to be posted over the next two days.

Thanks for reading, comments are serious love and have a good rest of the week ^^

PS: For little_witch27, Part IV is for you :) Hope you feel better and your computer doesn't give you so much trouble!

( Part III: ~Push a Dirty Little Secret~ )

Title: Drifting
Fandom: Nightmare
Pairings: Ni~yaxSakito (main), RukaxNi~yaxSakito
Rating: NC17
Spoilers/Warnings: Smex and threesomes.
Disclaimers: I don’t own them, I’m not implying any of this is true, God isn’t that nice to me.

Summary: Life has been going well for Ni~ya. Not only is he doing well at something he loves, it has also brought him his first serious relationship in years. So what if he is less forthcoming about his relationship than his boyfriend wants him to be?

Despite his stoic front, Ruka is unsatisfied with his life but can’t actually pinpoint why. Clouding his feelings further are the fact that the person he likes is in a serious relationship with someone else.

Sakito sees all of this but does nothing. That’s until an unorthodox solution comes to him, but will it prove too much of a gamble?

A/N:This is actually an old fic that I wrote as a birthday present for the lovely aitakute but given what I know now about Nightmare as a band, was deserving as a rewrite. Also, I was inspired by a couple of great Ni~yaxSakito writers :) I will update the remainder of the fic next weekend fingers crossed.

Read, enjoy and please comment ^^

( Part I:~Drifting~ )

Meme from aitakute
1. If you'd like, comment to this entry saying 'ICONS!' and I will pick 6 of your icons.
2. Make an entry in your own journal and talk about the icons I picked!

( SJ )

( D )

Man that was harder to write than I thought it would be :S

There has just been too much grief and agony in the comms for the past week in addition to too much worry and stress in real life. Hopefully, doing this kind of thing will at least either take my mind off it....or jump start me to begin writing again LOL I am never short of ideas, just the will to write.

Shamelessly ganked from flat_foot (I hope you don't mind!)

7 Points of Light Challenge (similar to flat_foot's 9 Muses Challenge and dmjewelle's 22 themes)

7 because I think that is about as many as I can handle. I was thinking of 9, but then I realised that I really don't have THAT many ppl on my friend's list. So I will accept double requests, and first come first serve. Anything beyond that, depends on what tickles my fancy.

What do to?
1. Pick a quote, word, kink, scene, picture, song, feeling, anything you think is sufficient enough that can be writen and/or is open for interpretation and you feel is inspiring. As for songs, I am limiting it to three...first come first serve ^^
2. Preferably something I'm familiar with, but I'm open to suggestions.
3. In terms of fandoms, I can only do what I already know. I think by now you should have a rough idea. If not, ask and I shall tell.

What I will do?
4. If I'm not sure of your request, I'll obviously ask you for more details ^^
5. I will try and make it a mix of both fanfiction and original, so that everyone can relate in some way.
6. Mainly slash pairings, I don't mind het pairings but slash pairings as a focus (its just how my mind works these days lol)
7. The length of it will range from a drabble to a oneshot :) but I will basically give it what it's worth

What I will not do?
8. Absolutely nothing *grins* it can be dirty, it can be filthy, it can be kinky, it can be taboo. But it can also be sweet, fluffy and PG lol

Why 7?
Because I like the number ^^

Kay guys..comment away ^^ *crosses fingers*

Haven't done one of these in ages so why the heck not before I sleep :)

List 10 of your favorite characters from different fandoms, and ask people to spot patterns in your choices, and if they're so inclined, to draw conclusions about you based on the patterns they've spotted.

This is seriously hard for me because I hardly watch any series these days :S But I will give it a shot (and its not entirely JRock so yay! LOL). But I will pick different bands since JRock as a fandom is so huge

Aoi (the GazettE)
Yoshiki (X Japan)
Sakito (Nightmare)
Mizuki (Sadie)
Kyo (Dir en grey)
Gregory House (House)
Ianto Jones (Torchwood)
John Barrowman
Ray Langston (CSI)
Danny Messer (CSI: NY)

Okay the last one was a bit of a throw in....but I do like him :)

So any patterns? *scratches head*

Title: Reasons to Hide
Fandom: Sadie
Pairings: MaoxMizuki
Rating: NC17
Spoilers/Warnings: Smex and language
Disclaimers: I offered to feed both of them but both still refused to live with me.

A/N: This was written as a companion piece to aitakute's Reasons To Forgive that she wrote for me. This can be read as a standalone, but reading hers will give a more complete picture. Plus, there aren't enough MaoxMizuki fics out there ^_~

Summary: Mao's relationship with guitarist Mizuki puzzles even him at times. But as he observes him, he tries to work it out in his own way.

( Reasons to Hide )

So I am back from my 12 days in Tokyo. I’m flat broke, I’m tired as hell and in need of a massage because my feet, calves and neck hurt. I also have no urge to work at all, and to top it off I think I’m coming down with a cold as a consequence of freezing my tits off for a few days and then coming back to stiflingly hot weather.

So after all that, was it all worth it?

Abso-fucking-lutely.

Ever since my last trip to Tokyo in 2004 to see Dir en grey live, I’ve always had the urge to go back. And going back just made me realise how much I’ve missed everything about the city.
It also reaffirmed my opinion that while Malaysia runs in my blood and UK owns my heart, Tokyo definitely owns my soul.

However, since I am crap at listing out my holiday on a day-by-day basis, I decided to just list out the highlights in reverse order, from the just memorable to the stuff that will stick with me for a long time.

I apologise though for the lack of pictures since I don’t know where the cable for my camera is, but I promise I will try and update in a few days ^^

So without further ado……

( Highlights, lowlights, hairlights, Aoi )

*WARNING: MASSIVE FANGIRLING AHEAD*

Omg GazettE's seventh bday live was just....just....just...

*#»$@)t*?/:;',!!!!

I was in the front row. FRONT ROW! In front of my fave member Aoi-sama and he was just so the sugoi!!!! He twirled, he danced, he bent backwards, he mock pengsan (during one song), he joked, he smiled and....and.... He ripped open his shirt superman style to reveal amazing abs and one hell of a chest. It took all my willpower not to leap over the barricade and climb up the stage. He was soooooo fine its a crime

But not only tht, there was much fanservice between him and Uruha.

Uruha's green pants were so amazing they could have been seen from space.

Ruki looked so cool in his raspberry suit and an amazing silver dreadlocked hairdo which could also possibly be seen from spacem

Reita threw and caught his bass thank god and Kai just couldn't stop smiling.

They played DISTRESS AND COMA! And they announced new album in July!

All in all it was....it was...<3<3<3<3

*dies*

Ps: can you tell I enjoyed myself so fucking immensely? ;)

Title: Christmas Favours
Fandom: the GazettE
Pairings: AoixUruha
Rating: NC17
Spoilers/Warnings: Much smex
Disclaimers: Not mine but not for lack of trying.

Summary: Favours never come free from Aoi, that much his boyfriend Uruha knows. But when Aoi sets up a little game for Christmas, it leaves Uruha wondering just how well he knows his lover.

( Christmas Favours )

This beautiful FST was made by the talented aitakute who made it for my Me and Mr. Jones fanfic ^^

For those of you new to the concept, an FST stands for Fan Sound Track, which is a fan made digital album with songs that were related to that fandom. Music formed a crucial part of this story, especially considering it was almost entirely inspired by the very first track ^^ (and finding the songs were something else).

This album also is extremely eclectic with pop, rock, oldies and even some in a different language ;) If you take please credit and comment, would be much appreciated :)




[DOWNLOAD - COMPLETE PDF]
( Lady-sb presents... )

A/N:In the end....

( Epilogue )

A/N:Hey everyone ^^ I am SO SO sorry for the two day delay to this part. I was actually sick for a couple of days then the internet went bonkers on me. When it rains it pours I tell you =_=;;

Anyways after MUCH delay here is Chapter 12 ^^ The epilogue (which is already half written) will be posted tomorrow night, promise...no delays as I realise how long its been since Chap 11, and this story deserves to be wrapped up.

As and I always say, hope is always good ^^

Firstly, I want to thank everyone that was concerned about me when my laptop got stolen. It was a harrowing experience and it really was a pain for a few days. You guys are amazing ^^ And I am much happier with my new laptop.

A couple of shoutouts, congratulations to my fave band Dir en grey for the release of Uroboros (a much better album than Marrow of the Bone) and to The GazettE for their single LEECH reaching no. 1 on Oricon. Omedetou minna!

Enjoy, please comment and check back tomorrow :)

( Chapter 12 )

A/N:Greetings everybody ^^ Since it's approaching winter (for those of you who have winter), I thought it nice to change my layout to something warmer. Plus those two boys are one of my OTP's ^_~

Anyways we are almost at the end wow. Not much longer to go now ^^ Oh yes, I also wasn't completely happy with Chapter 10 so I rewrote some of it. Most of the changes are cosmetic, I added a small scene and made the sex longer. Please do read if you have time and tell me what you think :)

With that, enjoy Chapter 11 ^^

( Chapter 11 )

A/N:*comes out from behind the rock she has been typing under*...Hey everyone ^^ serious apologies for the cliffhanger I left it at last time. I wish I could blame the music I've been listening to but when I originally drafted this out, I always wanted to end Chap 9 like that ^^;;

Inspiration for this chapter was threefold. The first was Twinning's Lady Grey tea (very nice), the second was all the reports from The Hub Convention (love your report and pictures lucy_locket, I heard no videos though) and these pictures of my current fave band The GazettE (fanservice FTW!).

Oh yes a couple of birthdays for this week as well. Happy Birthday to my best friend Andy (lonelydark) and to cherry_soup888 (sorry, I don't feel I know you well enough to call you Abby ^^;;) and drummer-chan Kai-kun! Hopefully he doesn't forget his birthday :) or where he leaves his presents. This chapter is for you guys ^^

Hope this chapter redeems me ^^ Have a good week everyone

( Chapter 10 )

A/N:Heya everyone ^^ Thanks to all my regular readers and those who just discovered my fic for the first time for all the comments. You guys really are the best :D

This chapter was powered by The GazettE, a band that I have recently discovered a new found love for. Mostly thanks to their song Crimson Lotus (Guren).

Inspiration for writing Chapter 9 came from vocalist Ruki's amazing lyrics, which manage to wrap around your heart and guitarist Uruha's (the pretty boy in my default LJ icon) solo, which make you feel fuzzy inside ;) Please do listen if you have the time, it's a great song.

Enjoy and take care everyone ^^

( Chapter 9 )

A/N:Hey everyone ^^ I really can't thank everyone enough for the great comments (even when it was a cliffhanger). This chapter actually didn't take as long for me to write, but it still was a bit hard going. Regardless I was finally happy with it the first time round, and I hope you guys like it as well.

This chapter is flavoured by Moroccon Mint Tea. Have a good week everyone :)

( Chapter 8 )

A/N:Hey everyone ^^ Hope everyone has had a great week. Thanks again for the comments and seriously thank you to (in no particular order) lucy_locket, suki_blue, cherry_soup888 and the mods at janto_recs for reccing me. Sorry to whoever I've missed, I just noticed the three of you reccing me so *bows in thanks*.

Anyways it was a holiday for me this week so I've been in my parents house this week (and they don't have internet connection). But in the end I liked how this chapter turned out and I hope all of you do as well.

And major thanks to Andy, Doreen and Serena who helped me when I stumbled. You guys are the best *hugs all around*

This chapter is brought to you by Starbucks' Tazo Earl Grey tea. Hopefully no one was peeking over my shoulder when I was writing it ^_~

Enjoy!

( Chapter 7 )

A/N: Wow its midway and judging by all the feedback everyone has given me, I am so flattered that everyone is liking how this story is panning out :)

The reason why Chapter 6 took so long was because I wasn't really that happy with the first draft, so I ended up rewriting the entire thing from scratch. I am happier with this version and I hope everyone likes it as well ^^

First of all thanks for all the comments and some of you that recced me. It really made my day and pushed me to finish faster (jk)

A special thanks to aitakute who made me set of three Me and Mr. Jones icons when I mentioned that I was thinking of making some but my icon making skills are very not up to par =_=;;

Anyways, happy reading. Constructive feedback is always appreciated :)

( Chapter 6 )